Today started out really kind of ruff. First off I didn’t want to get up. I got out of bed and turned the coffee pot on and went back to bed and started reading. Needless to say it wasn’t long before I fell back asleep. Lucky for me I have 3 alarms set on my ipod to help me stay on task in the morning. One goes off for me to get up. One goes off when it is time for me to get SAM up and then the last one goes off for me to get Jes up. This way I don’t get lost in to whatever I am reading or my bible study or web surfing. This morning I waited to alarm #3 went off to get up. This made my morning routine nonexistent and the only thing that happens like normal is I manage to drink my 2 cups of coffee.
Next I just could not make myself want eggs today. Not any way you can make them. . . it just was not happening. So I decide today I would use my yogurt and fruit to make me a protein shake. I have not had one since starting this diet but feel like it is legit to this phase. It is low fat, protein and sugar free. I even decided to add a little unsweetened coco powder to it. I must say it was heaven in a cup!!! I think it will be breakfast for another day or two. At least to the urge to eat eggs comes back.
The bad thing about not eating food in the morning is by lunch time I got hungry. Really hungry. So tomorrow if I make a shake I will have to have my veggies and dip ready for when I want something to tide me over till lunch. Luckily, the cafeteria at work had green beans for lunch.
Tonight we had a fun event at church for our children’s choir. The children invited their grandparents to church and did fun songs and activities with them and then they had refreshments. There was this long table with all kinds of the worst kinds of food. You know the very yummy kind. There was pizza, homemade cookies, crackers, chips, taco soup, cherry pie, Rice Krispy treats and the list and the table went on and on. Kevin and I decided we would pull kitchen duty and pour drinks so that we would not have to go out there with the food. I did tell Kevin at the end to go get us some veggies and I couple pieces of fruit. (I know it was after 2 pm but at least it wasn’t chocolate chips cookies. I mean it is fruit. Once won’t kill me.) He comes back with a bowl full of veggies and 1 piece of pineapple. I said Kevin you went and got the 1 piece of fruit up there we can’t eat. So he tossed it. Oh well, that just means we didn’t cheat – even a little! I am much happier now though that I didn’t give in than I would have been eating a cookie.
I keep telling myself I am going to get there. One day I will be able to go into special nights like this and enjoy it. This is temporary but for me necessary to try and reset my boundaries with food. I do have control of this. I do get a choice. Sometimes I will just have to make the hard choices. What else in our lives do we have “control over” that it is not sometimes necessary to have to make a hard choice? Nothing. . .being in control means being the one who makes the calls – hard ones and easy one.
Today’s meals: yogurt/protein/fruit smoothie, orange, green beans, chicken & veggie soup, grilled tuna steak, steamed veggies, carrots, cucumbers & celery, left over tuna that SAM didn’t finish, yogurt.
Today’s exercise: I went for a 35 minute walk. With the program tonight I did not have time to go to the gym and I didn’t have time to get cleaned up after a run before church. So I compromised and decided not to skip exercise just because it wasn’t what I wanted to do.
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