Celebrations – they are supposed to be a happy thing. They are supposed to be fun! However, when you are trying to stick to a certain diet they can be so difficult. Tonight we had our end of the year celebration for the Ra’s and Ga’s at our church. Tonight’s party included pizza, chicken nuggets, cookies, chips, & bread sticks. None of these things are on my diet. Tonight I wanted to celebrate with my children. I wanted to sit at the tables with my children and eat the pizza and cookies and enjoy myself. I wanted to laugh and have fun and eat. However, instead I hid in the kitchen and eat my Subway salad where I didn’t have to see the other foods. I didn’t have to explain my meal to anyone. I just hid out and ate my salad and then later came out and went back to partying.
I am glad that I didn’t cheat. However, I am not happy that I spent that time alone in the kitchen eating and hiding from food. I love my Girls in Action group. Those girls bring joy to my heart and smiles to my face. They are a bright spot in the middle of my week. They allow me to be a kid again with them and just enjoy being around them and their silly ways. However, tonight for part of the time I had to be the grown up on a diet for a while. This is something I do hate about being on a diet. Yeah – I could have cheated tonight- and maybe I should have cheated tonight. I feel like I missed out on the part of the fun and quite honestly it feels so unfair. Maybe I am making too much out of this. Maybe I am just having my own little pity party. Either way – I feel like I missed out on something tonight! I hate that!
All in all today was a successful diet day. Again today we had teacher appreciation luncheon. I brought my lunch home for my family. I brought the hamburger home for my hubby for dinner, my dessert for SAM to eat after school and the chips home for my son to have for snack tomorrow. I had a child bring me a piece of one of my favorite ~ black berry wine cake ~ and I brought it home for someone here to eat. Then tonight I ate salad instead of fun stuff. . . Now that I think about it I guess I just hate the fact that all day long I have said no to all the wonderful things offered to me because of my weight. Looking back that is probably the reason for my pity party – I just hate that of all the things I had to give up tonight – it was dinner with some of my FAVORITE people. . . all my little ladies that bring me so much joy!
Today’s meals: Strawberry oatmeal, roasted chicken chunks, salad w/ grilled chicken, veggies w/ hummus, apples, roasted chicken salad, yogurt, soy nut energy mix.
Today’s exercise – weights at the gym for 40 minutes
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