Whatever. . .

Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable—if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise—dwell on these things.
Philippians 4:8 (Holman Christian Standard Bible)



Today has been a crazy busy day. For me it started out around 4:30 with a nightmare that wouldn’t let me go back to sleep. My mind started thinking about my day ahead of me and it just kept on full speed ahead.



Tonight my son who is a 5th grader at the school I work at will have his 5th grade Celebration/Awards Night. Our school goes to 6th grade; however, most students leave and go to one of the other 6th grade middle school in the county. We have chosen for Jesse to stay here unless he moves up on the waiting list at the other charter school in our town. However, either way the fact still remains that my son – my baby son is old enough to go to middle school. Where did the time go? Just thinking about it now makes me want to cry. As I thought about it this morning I realized I didn’t ever really cry when either of my children started Kindergarten. I did cry a little on Sarah’s 1st day but not for that reason. You see I was in the hospital after having Jesse the day before her first day of kindergarten. I was not home to take my baby girl to school and I was at peace with that. (Even though I really did want to fix her hair and get her dressed.) On the morning of her first day of school my husband called me at the hospital to tell me that she was running a little bit of a fever. Well-being that I send children home from school with a fever for a living I told him that he could not send her to school that day. He told me that she was already dressed with her book bag on and that he did not have the heart to tell her that she could not go to “mommy's school” today. Well of course being hormonal as most new mama’s are – I began to sob. Not that she was or wasn’t going to school but because I wasn’t home to “fix this”. This of course caused my husband to get emotional as well. Finally I told him to just wait until my mom – a nurse – got there and let her check her temp again and make the decision that I wasn’t able to make. Needless to say grandma wasn’t about to tell her that she couldn’t go to school either – so Sarah went to school that first day! Meanwhile I sit in the hospital and wondered what everyone was going to think about me for sending my sick kid to school her first day of school! Kevin did check her out early so that she could come see her little baby brother and she got to tell me all about her day.



I do remember the days I did cry though. . . I cried on the way to school the first morning that her daddy took Sarah to middle school & so did he! I also cried a couple times when I rode by the high school the summer before she started there. I also cried sitting in my car waiting to pick her up that first day she went to high school. I also cried this morning after getting up early and thinking about how I am fixing to be sending my youngest on that same journey. Truth be told – I am crying all over again just rethinking about it.



Even though right now I don’t know if he will be here next year or somewhere else the one thing I know for sure is he will be right where God wants him to be. I am not going to worry or stress over it. However, I will instead reminisce on the good things like the fact that I was able to bring both my babies to work with me every day for the last 11 years. So I am not going to worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough worries of its own . . . instead I will dwell on whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable—if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise.

I am also grateful to share my story with you. Glad that I can write it all out and express myself without finding comfort in foods like chocolate, chips or even an extra healthy good-for-me snack.
Today's foods: oatmeal w/ half an apple, other half of the apple, salad w/ chuncks of chicken, yogurt, grapes, salad w/ shredded chicken

Today's exercise: Sit-ups, 25 minutes Wii workout, 45 minutes weights at the gym.