Happy Tuesday. It is a new day and I am trying to have a brand new attitude. I think I said it best on my face book status today. “I have always considered myself "determined" but now I think I am going to step it up a notch to "relentless" because I am worth every effort that I put forth to better myself physically, emotionally and spiritual! It isn’t going to be easy but again I am worth it. I guess I just needed to say that out loud!” I first had this thougth last night while I was running during Jesse’s ball practice. Like I said – I ran for an hour last night. Back and forth – up the hill to my old elementary school and then back down the hill to the other elementary school. (K-4 & 5-7) I am training for a 5K that is next weekend and it is going to be a course that is up and down hills so I figured it was good training to get me prepared for the hills to come. After the 5 or so trip up the hill I started saying I will only do this one last time. I did this about 3 more times. The music as good, the weather was wonderful and I was so sweaty that I really hated to go sit and wait for practice to be over. I kept thinking about how in the last set of 17 days that I really have not lost any weight. I have done a little cheating here and there. I had completely decided not to diet at all on Easter. I kept remembering the verse I found in Nehemiah early on in lent and I thought to myself there is no other day that is more of a celebration then Easter so I will not spend my day dieting. However, I really haven’t been all bad. I have eaten a few pieces of birthday cake here and there – which reminds me I did have a small piece yesterday but in all my frustration I forgot to mention that in my list of foods. I sure don’t want anyone to think I have been lying – I honestly forgot. Kevin and I did have pizza one night again and I tried to eat Mexican for dinner on Sunday night but it was not good. It was way too salty. I told Kevin I didn’t know if it was me not use to eating out and it was more salty then I was used to or if it just wasn’t a good meal. I told him to remind him how much I didn’t like it the next time I said I wanted Mexican. I can honestly say I really have not done that bad. However, the last few weeks I have not budge on the scales. So as I kept on running up and down that hill last night I decided that even though I have always been determined that I was going to have to be even better than just determined if I was going to get the scale moving in the right direction.
My husband has lost enough weight that people have now convinced him that he is too small and he needs to gain weight. I am not going to fight him on this – I didn’t make him do this and I am not going to start making a big deal out of it. He has said that he was glad he did it with me because it has caused him to eat much healthier and he for the most part enjoys what I cook. Honestly, as long as I cook for him – he will eat just about whatever it is I cook. I haven’t perfected my home made turkey sausage enough for him – but as long as I can buy it in a box at the grocery store I am ok with being the only one eating mine. So with my husband eating mostly back to normal I have decided to try my best to eat off the list of foods for the first 17 days. If I find myself in a place where I have to have a potato it will be ok but for the most part I am choosing to be relentless in making decisions that will help me see the scale start moving again. I see longer runs in my future and a little more cardio on weight training days. I am sure I could lose more if I would stop weight training but I enjoy it and it is good for me so I am not going to quit just so the scale will move faster. Strong muscles are good even if they do weight more. Plus I may not be a fast runner but I am strong! Now I just need to get my mind as strong as my muscles and get it set on eating the right way.
I know that I have lost enough weight to see it in how my clothes fit and to have people comment on it. However, I still have a ways to go and I don’t want to just give up on this because results are slow. That is why I have decided to step up my determination to another level and see where it takes me.
Today’s meals – eggs w/ a little cheese, chicken breast, taco salad, strawberries, apples, veggies and dip, grilled chicken and steamed veggies, yogurt.
Today’s exercise – weight training 45 minutes
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